I was aggressively trying to decolonize my "ugly" dark body by claiming it as a beautiful brown one, while receiving an intensely colonizing perspective of beautiful that made my body exotic.
To this day, now that I walk like my shit don't stink, I am constantly reminding myself that my shit don't stink because I was made whole and perfect from day 1, and NOT because the amount of white gaze affirmation that has become a norm for me.
Being that, in my experience, non-caucasian men seem to prefer lighter skinned woman this leaves many very beautiful woman with darker complexions available.
Since color is a non-factor most men will go for the most beautiful woman; who at this point is more likely to have a darker complexion.
The result was a pervasive mental slavery which primarily sought to teach Africans that because of the colour of their skin, they are not human enough, therefore not the creation of the almighty God.
Somehow light-skinned Africans in those dark old days were made to believe by their slave masters, and/or made themselves believe, that they were better than those who were dark-skinned.
I was decolonizing my body and what it meant to be pretty in my cultura, and I began to experience the white gaze that saw me as irresistible, purely because they had never seen someone like me before.
Before the introduction of money, people used what was known as the barter system, exchanging between themselves items they calculated to be equal in value.
There is something insulting about your gawking gaze that makes me feel more like a zoo animal than a person.
There is something violent about you perceiving me as pretty because I represent all those things that you want to be friends with, like that African baby you want to adopt and that Nicaraguan friend you party with.
In The Following, Demolishers with green military-styled camouflage appear far more commonly and unconstrained by urban environments, making them even greater of a threat.
" as a perceived "pretty girl." But nobody is really talking about the fact that some of us brown girls have only begun to fall into that category, purely by exotification of our entire raza. I exclusively dated Latinos because when you grow up in a city composed of 71% Latinxs, that is just normal and expected.